Hi, sisters! Pray for Jana as she’s getting ready to teach ANOTHER retreat this weekend. She asked me to share one of my stories with you, so I wanted to let you in on a conversation Lyschel and I had the other day. Hope her words bless you like they did me. ~ Laura
A Question of Worth
“I’m so mad! She’s just so belittling and nit picky. I can never please her! And it was the STUPIDEST argument anyway. And I was right! And she wouldn’t admit it. And I don’t want to appologize to her because she’s being a ____.” I dumped all this in Lychel’s ear.
“On top of that, I had to take out a school loan. I’m embarrassed that I even need one. I should manage my money better,” I added. “Moreover, I cried at the bank because I was so upset over the argument. That’s embarassing too. I feel like a total loser.”
Lychel just listened. “You have permission to be mad, if that’s what you’re looking for. And you’re not a loser. You’re God’s. You’re so good. Remember that your value isn’t based on your performance.”
“I know you’re right. I just want to know why it bugs me SO badly when someone acts like I’m stupid. Why am I feelng so much embarassment? Why does it matter so much?”
“Sounds like there are a lot of ‘worth’ questions in there to me.” Lyschel replied.
Bingo. I knew she had just hit home. Jesus has been talking a lot to me lately about my worth to Him. Why is it that He treasures me again?
Because of how smart I am? No.
My service? No.
My loving others well and always being kind? No. Good thing, because I just blew that one.
He loves me because of Who He is. Because it delightes Him to do so. He calls me a pearl. Because of WHO He made me. My worth is a WHO not a WHAT.
And in loving but uncomfortable ways, He’s letting me see that too! He’s letting me see that I can’t determine my value by anything other than what He determines it by: What HE says, and Who HE is.