It is so much fun to let go of a ball in a pinball machine. It starts setting off lights and bells everywhere. Such was yesterday’s blog.
Sistahs just like me (members of the round belly club) gave me a resounding Amen. DING DING DING
Others gently instructed me on how or why to process with understanding. FLASH FLASH
I so love journeying with us in all different places. Nice to know that I am not alone in my frustration; nice to know that others have moved beyond, or never experienced it. But I find I am laughing at us all. In love of course. Not sure there is a right answer on this one.
He is the answer. For me, for you, in the middle of the moment. And you know what? The moments are often ugly and that is okay. You may not ever get asked that because that might not ever set you off. But I did, and it did.
You see, my Holy Dad set me up. He knew that reaction was in there, and I did not. Think of it as my own personal “show and tell.” He showed me what He was seeing so He could tell me how much He loves me and wants to be my everything. John Dee tells me often, “He wanted me to see what He always knew was there.” Truth in the innermost parts.
And then Jesus came right after the wounding and started reminding me of all of His sweet murmurings in my ear and heart.
As if that was not enough, the Spirit guided me into real revelation…. about “that girl.” Do you have this? The memory, the hurt from middle school, high school, college, the same “that girl” who has showed up all through life. You know the one – she always made you feel like crap. If you let her.
I just took a comprehensive exam yesterday. And you know historically, I don’t test too good. But I am a quick, quick learner. I love the way He simply won’t let me live in lies. That my friends, round or flat, is freedom.
How about you? When you blow up, where do you go?